Transitioning from being a “mind” person to a “spiritual being” hasn’t been easy for me. I wanted to spend a little time documenting my journey in the hopes that it will help some of you going through this same stage in your life.
I had always been someone who was in control of my diary and finances and was incredibly organised. This sense of control makes us feel secure, something that most of us long for. But this sense of security is a false one so many things that are out of our control disrupt this and leave us feeling unbalanced. We have seen it many times over, the 2020 pandemic, the financial meltdown in 2008, unending wars in the name of freedom are all situation out of our individual control but events that have a huge impact on us emotionally and spiritually.
When we look to embrace our spiritual growth and see these things from a spiritual perspective it can feel incredibly daunting. We need to accept that all that we have known before might not necessarily be the whole truth.
I had to accept that the years spent in a different mindset were great lessons and carried me to a point in my life where I needed to be. Nevertheless I cannot stop thinking at time that if I understood spirituality before I would have had a less stressful life and been spared a lot of pain.
I had to first accept that all the scarifies made to achieve the career I had, the house I could afford needed to be stripped away and let go. Strip away layers upon layers of fears, manipulation, forced friendships and finally learn to trust in a journey that doesn’t come with an instruction manual. I think that one of the main reasons I studied accountancy is because numbers make sense, they have defined rules that never change. Trusting your inner voice and spiritual guides is something else.
Nevertheless, I do trust and to achieve this I had to dig deep to find the courage to go against the mainstream mentality. I had to look within myself to find the courage to take my vulnerabilities and try to transform them into my strengths using my sensitivity as a radar to show me the way.
The process was a difficult one. I shed a lot of tears in my private space, during my meditation, with my husband and mentors. I feel such deep gratitude to them for their support and wisdom. I was filled with questions and doubts, what if I don’t learn how to get there? What if I get lost? What if I don’t have enough time? What if I am not good enough?
All these fears and questions needed to be worked on repeatedly, the answers never came to me immediately. I had to keep pushing myself to address things that I knew would be painful believing in myself and the process.
I have walked this path with courage, love and support knowing that it was the only way for me to be successful in what I am called to do in helping others on their healing journey. It is been the most extraordinary and magical voyage for me. It is embracing the real essence of we all are, Light Being!
If you feel that you are in need of guidance during your passage into becoming a spiritual being reach out to me so we walk your path together.